The Mango Returns

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Hi debora :) above is not the dilemma i said i'll blog about. but anyhows,  i'm just in the mood to tell you about this particular short story that happened! 

so as you can see, the mango returns! 

as you read this, you probably already have a few questions lined up in your head ready to ask me. don't worry, i've put it in words all nicely for you: 

1) "Omg Cindy. How did you feel?" (Before you met him) 

2) "... How did you feel?" (When you are with him) 

3) "... How are you feeling... now?" (Now that you have seen him) 

4) "... so.. what's next? what's gonna happen?" 

5) ".. do you.. do you... ?" (Did you mean whether I still... *ahem* him?) 

it's so funny. i used to like him so much :) 

holding a torch for him for months, but he never liked me that way. 

and because of physical separation, we both no longer exist in the same time, on the same land, with the same schedule anymore. 

you saw how happy i was when he emailed me even if it was only 2-3 sentences after 2-3 weeks.

and you saw how sad i was when i saw that a new girl has entered his life.

and i was never anything special, because truly, it was "out of sight, out of mind". 

anyways. i happily moved on with my life! :)

and then 2 years later. 

The Mango Returns. 

it was only for 2 days though. and we barely spent time to reminisce over the years. 

we met for a quick dinner and he had to catch a bus to go to san jose. 

what can we catch up about in such a short time? 

indeed, there wasn't much updating between us. 

but all i know was that.

the feeling that i had 2 years ago when were spending time as friends, 

IS the same feeling i had a week ago when i met him for that few hours. 

nothing seemed to be different. 

i felt so secure in his presence :)

it's like.. for the past 2 years in LA, i've not gotten that feeling from anybody, at all. 

it's so funny. 

i really like the 'me' with him. 

cause i felt so rested, and in peace. like there's nothing to worry about. 

and it was at that moment that i was reminded again, why i used to like him so much. 

cause he's just unique that way! 

but don't get me wrong. 

i no longer like him that way, or wait for him that way. 

the moment i let him go, i literally, and really, let him go. 

i really really appreciate him as a friend. 

and as someone who made a difference in my life :)

he genuinely cared, and i owe him a debt. 

how can i not tell him about the person who loves me the most?

so i gave him a tract, and wrote to him about the precious one :) 

The one that loves me, loves him too!

pray for him kay. 

i really really want him to get to the full knowledge of the truth. 

i feel like all these time when we were friends, he helped me so much but i couldn't do anything to help him. he has so much problems that he kept it all to himself. 

he doesn't tell me all those, but i hope he can see that there's someone he can depend on for the rest of his life. 

:)

awww deb. you know how i feel right? 

the right way? 

i'm so burdened for him. 

you know he's the only guy good to me. genuinely. 

:)

i believe you know what i mean. 

i owe him so much. 

and i can only give him Christ.